Hello, friends. I am back for the first time in quite a while, and I thought it would be appropriate to give an update of where I have been in the past few months and why I haven’t been posting.
Quite frankly, this blog (and my writing in general) has not gone how I have always envisioned. I am a very idealistic person, and I had a lot of ideas of how my writing should be. I pictured myself going all out, constantly finding new inspiration and motivation, and spending every spare moment writing. But life has a way of happening in the middle of your dreams, and instead of working through that, I just didn’t put my priorities in the right place for some time. My job just recently went full time, and when I wasn’t working or spending time with other people, I was tired and didn’t feel like doing anything productive. As a result of that, I quit pursuing things like writing and music. And honestly? I have a pile of books that I want to read, but I don’t make the time to read them. I have so many ideas for projects and adventures, but I haven’t taken the time or the effort to actually put them into play. I’m not here to make any excuses, but I’m also not here to make a promise of posting every week, or to make an announcement of another big project. I am here simply to say that 1.) I’m sorry that I haven’t made this a priority, I feel like I have let people down and not been true to my word, and 2.) This blog is a huge dream of mine and something that God has been nudging me towards for years. I am finally deciding to be honest about how much I have been struggling to prioritize it and follow His will in obedience.
The truth is, I love writing and blogging. I love coming up with new ways to express things, and I have always wanted to use my writing to help people. But I learned that it doesn’t come effortlessly. I still need to cultivate it and work hard to find my writing style and methods. I am prioritizing writing and posting on this blog again, and I know that it will take time for me to develop my style, to get things to a point where I can communicate thoughts and ideas well. But something God has been teaching me is that if I wait until I’m a good writer, I will never start at all. And I am deciding right now to walk in obedience and stop ignoring His call.
I have felt very unqualified to write this blog. I have had a lot of struggles in my faith, especially lately, and I don’t have a lot of extraordinary life experiences to draw wisdom from. I also worry a lot about peoples’ opinions, and I have allowed their opinions and my ideas of what they think of my writing to control me. But I know that God is teaching me to stop focusing so much on what people think of me, and I am learning and growing, even through the difficulties. He’s been showing me that He doesn’t call the qualified, but he qualifies the called. With that being said, I am still working on figuring out what kind of things I want to post on here. For a while, it might just be a collection of journaled thoughts and things I am learning. I haven’t quite figured it all out. But I know that the time to start is now, and I have been putting it off and forcing a routine and a cookie cutter around my writing. I want to be open to what God leads me to write, and be pliable in His hands to His will.
As you can tell, I am working on a bit of a new design, hopefully something that is more true to my vision and style for this blog, and I am excited to see where it goes! I would appreciate your prayers, that I will stay faithful in what God is leading me to do, and that I will not allow complacency about my writing to creep back in.
I feel like this post has been all over the place, but my hope and prayer is that I will be honest and open with my readers, and that my writing will be used for God’s kingdom and glory. I feel like I need a fresh start with this blog, even though I have barely started at all, and I know that this was the post I needed to write in order to do so.
Thank you so much for being supportive, kind, and patient with this blog process and with me. I love you guys, and I am so grateful for this opportunity to use my writing in this way!
My name is Megan Grace. I believe in Jesus, hugs, laughter, and lots of coffee. I have a passion to see the young women of my generation coming together in Jesus’ name to encourage, love, and speak truth into each others’ lives. My prayer is that the words you read on this blog meet you right where you are and point you to Jesus.