Today, I want to have a real and open talk about obedience to God’s calling. Because when I’m being completely honest, I realize that I have been hesitant and fearful to do so, especially with this blog. I mentioned in my last post that I have felt unqualified to be writing devotionals and encouragement, and God has been showing me lately how much I allowed that to control me. I hesitated to write posts, or try to encourage people, because I felt like I had no experience, or I wasn’t spiritually mature enough. I have felt like I have been stuck the past few months, like I’m unable to grow in my faith, and because of that, I shrank away from blogging in fear that I would be a hypocrite. In my mind, it wasn’t right to be posting devotional content when I was struggling so much myself. When I was being honest with myself, I knew that this was what God wanted me to do, but I refused to do it for fear of what others would think of me if they knew I was struggling.
But here’s the thing that God showed me: I am not ever going to be “good enough” or “experienced enough” to do this, especially if I am trying to operate on my own strength. I have realized that I had been waiting for perfection, and that is never going to come. I don’t have to feel ready. I don’t have to have it all together. I need to walk in obedience, in the purpose and calling that God has given me, knowing that it is through His power alone that I can do anything at all. He will provide exactly what I need, when I need it, and He will be the one speaking through my messy words. I don’t want these to be my ideas. I don’t want this blog to be about me. This needs to be about Him, and He has given me all I need to walk in His calling.
Here’s what I want to encourage you with: God never calls us to do something, then abandons us to figure it out. He calls us, He empowers us, He gifts us uniquely, and He guides and directs us the entire way. And the thing is? You aren’t going to feel ready. If you wait on the feelings, they won’t come. Speak the truth to yourself, remember that He goes behind and before you, He will never leave you or forsake you, HE is your refuge and your strength, His power works in you, and in Him you are never, ever alone. Don’t let fear keep you from walking in obedience. Take that first step, that first plunge, knowing that He is there to catch you and carry you through whatever it is He is nudging you towards. Don’t let Satan convince you that you have to be good enough or reach a certain level of knowledge and spiritual expertise. This Christian walk is a journey..all that we are called to do is live in obedience to Him right now, right here. God has called you, gifted you, and strengthened you to do His will, and if you are His, no weapon formed against you will prosper. God is faithful.
And one day, you are going to look back and realize that none of it was you. None of it was because you gathered up the courage, because you suddenly became ready, or because you learned to love yourself and know your strength. We are weak, HE is strong. Apart from God, we can do NOTHING. Pray for his guidance, and always be seeking to grow, but don’t wait for perfection, or you will never start.
The time to walk in your purpose and your calling is NOW. What are you waiting for?